In you our fathers put their trust; they trusted and you delivered them. They cried to you and were saved; in you they trusted and were not disappointed. Psalm 22: 4-5
In Chapter 8 of Stress-Less Living: Finding God’s Peace in Your Chaotic World, Tracie Miles shares that stress can lead to a hard time focusing or concentrating because of the never ceasing demand on your time. “Living in a constant state of stress, with adrenaline dangerously coursing through our veins, like a cancer cell just waiting for a place to land, will eventually lead to serious consequences.”
In October 2009, I was at the top of my game as a nursing manager. On a daily basis, I juggled the many responsibilities of my job. I loved my job. I loved the nurses that worked for me. Often I made home visits as a nurse so I was able to practice my nursing skills. As a manager, I was really good on the telephone so I solved many conflicts. I really thought I had the best job. I was finally learning every aspect of this job. I had been there five years.
I had a sinus infection and was placed on a very strong antibiotic. I needed to be on this medication for three weeks but after two weeks, I developed diarrhea. As a nurse, I knew I was in need of medical help. I needed to be given some fluids to stop the diarrhea. At 2:30 in the morning, I drove myself to the hospital. I received intravenous fluids, but I received much more. Feeling very much alone, I prayed. As I laid there, it was like a spot light was on the intravenous fluids, drip, drip, drip, each drop as the life saving fluids went in to my vein, I had time to listen to God. I had been filled with anxiety and now I was filled with peace. I knew that God was telling me to change jobs. I had been in the same field of nursing for twenty years so I told God I was willing but He would have to open the doors as I had tried to get out of this field of nursing in 1999.
I had to take some time off as my condition did not improve for awhile. While off on medical leave, I applied for another position that would use my twenty years of training. I interviewed and that went well but I had no idea whether I would be selected. As I waited on whether I would be chosen for this new job, fear became my companion. I cried out to the Lord, and I was filled with more stress and adrenaline.
But I claimed these verses, Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3: 5-6 (ESV) Behold God is my salvation; I will trust and will not be afraid, for the Lord God is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation. Isaiah 12:2 (ESV) Fear was choking me, daily I claimed 2 Timothy 1:7 for God gave us a spirit not of FEAR but of power and love and self-control. (ESV)
In early December, the telephone finally rang, I was offered the new position. I did not even ask how much I would be paid, it did not matter. I knew God had really visited me that night in October that my dream of leaving management had become a reality. God had opened the door for a new job in the hospital using my nursing experience. I have been in my position for three years, my stress level at work sometimes is high but not like it was before, I am a hospital case manager and I help people daily in the hospital. I truly feel this is my calling.
I trusted God enough to ask for the transfer, I did take a pay cut but no amount of money is worth suffering daily from stress that produces so much adrenaline that causes illness.
Lord, thank you for Tracie and her book Stress-Less Living. I know there are other areas of my life that I need to give to you that are causing me stress. I come to you as your daughter and I ask that I stay in your word daily and that I simply trust and obey.
There is a song I learned as a child the chorus says it all, “Trust and obey for there is no other way to be happy in Jesus but to trust and obey.”