Got #Peace

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Made To Crave. The question posed this week is about peace. Do I (Diana) have #peace with the realities of my body? How? What do I like about my body? What do I dislike about my body? Okay, Diana do you have # peace about your body? The How begins with an inventory. Do you have a body? Yes. Is your body functioning? Yes. Do you have pain? Yes. BUT that is for another blog. The reality is I have ears to hear, a nose to smell, eyes to see, a tongue to taste, lips to smile, arms to hugs, hands to help, fingers to type and wear rings, legs and feet to walk, toes to get a pedicure. I still didn’t answer the question, and as I ponder the question of #peace. I realize I have come to an acceptance about my body. You see, I have struggled with my weight and started many journeys to lose weight. I have been on some kind of a diet faithfully since 2005. I started my last journey October 2011 at 233. Like Lysa Teurkhurst, the author of Made To Crave, the scale determined whether I had a good or bad day. I would not weigh unless I had shaved and yes had a bowel movement and my bladder was empty. Many times I knew the answer before I got on the scale, but I would pray and promise to be good, if only the number on the scale would move to the left instead of to the right. However, I knew what I had eaten although sometimes I think I suffered from food amnesia. For those years, my head hunger ruled me, I could hear the peanut butter calling my name. I did not have peace with my body whether I was dieting or not dieting. Body image has always been hard for me. I never felt pretty in high school and I was thin. Currently, I am at goal weight. When I look in the mirror I see reflections of the two women who loved me and thought I was pretty, two women who taught me to love God, to pray, and to be the woman I am today. My ears are my grandmothers, my arms are like my moms. My hands are my mothers and I cannot forget my father, I have his toes. Psalms 139:14 says I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Despite the above passage, I see my reflection and critically I think my ears are a little large, I have a blind left eye, dark circles under my eyes, and because I have lost 105 pounds and I have some loose skin, but my arms are the only thing that bothers me, the “bat wings.” Seriously, just saying if I had some extra money, I would have these bat wings removed. Those are the parts of my body that I do not like. However, I do have peace with my body, I do look in the mirror now and I like my reflection. In Philippians 4: 4-9 “Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say rejoice! Let your forbearing spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” So my journey has been long, but I now have the peace that surpasses all comprehension. Each day I remind myself, without this body who would portray compassion to those I am suppose to show compassion. Without the arms I would not be able to hug my grandchildren. Without being able to use my legs how would I work as a nurse. “I love you Lord and I lift my voice to worship you, all my soul rejoice. Take joy my King in what you hear may it be a sweet sweet sound in your ear.” Thank you Lord for giving me eyes to see, ears to hear, voice to speak, arms to hug. Lord I have not been a good steward of my body but you change all of that. Forgive me for the years I have wasted running to food as my source of comfort and making food an idol. Thank you Lord that I can eat  nutritiously and I weigh for information. I am a temple of the Holy Spirit. I do not have to return to my old habits, I do not have to be afraid of the scale.  Allow me to claim 2 Timothy 1:7 that you did not give me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. As I draw near to you, you will draw near to me. Thank you for all the blessings.  Thank you for peaceful acceptance of my body imagine. Your daughter Diana

One Response to Got #Peace

  1. Thank you for sharing! Our bodies are so much more than our appearance, even if we are not happy with them they do so much for us, we can’t hate them. You’re right, we are fearfully and wonderfully made, we just need to remember that!

    Kris Danko (OBS Blog Hop Team)

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