My name is Diana and I suffer with pain. I have most of my adult life. I have had physical and emotional pain, acute and chronic pain, and acute on chronic pain.
There is a song, I used to sing, I do not know the author, “Something beautiful, something good, all my confusion, He understood, all I had to offer him was brokenness and strife and He made something beautiful out of my life.”
Pain is my constant companion. Sometimes pain shouts so loud that I can not hear God. Other times pain is at a lull and the very act of moving is by the grace of God. Every day I make a choice, I make a choice to go and do, even though something in my body hurts. I know that my God is with me. His grace is sufficient to meet my needs.
My day often goes something like this, I awake with a sinus headache….my thought is I am too sick to go to work, but then I think, you always have a headache, do the things you need to do to get your headache under control. Then I move and I feel the back pain and I think, I am to sick to go to work, but then I think, you always have a back pain, get up and stretch. Stretching, a cup of decaffeinated coffee, and my bible, prayer journal, and I start my day. Yes I go to work. Put on that happy face.
The emotional pain is another type of pain, I have suffered. God has answered so many prayers in this area. I am at a stage in my life where I accept my life. I have only one answer to Pain and that is Pain humbles me, Pain connects me with God. I would like to be pain free, I pray to be pain free, but for now I know that God’s grace is sufficient to meet my needs and I can do all things through Jesus Christ who gives me strength. Today, nothing can separate me from God, not even my pain.
Count your blessings name them one by one, count your blessings, see what God has done, Count your blessings, name them one by one, count your many blessings, see what God has done.
When asked, How are you? My reply is that I am blessed. (Pain and all, I am truly blessed).
Thanks for listening. Diana